This week I celebrate a victory over a big issue;I have received the breathing presence of God’s grace in my life.
I sense that these posts should be light, related to situations about living in grace in the real world and rejoicing in our small successes. But this week I cannot write about my small successes.
Instead, I am compelled to write about a deep paradigm shift that Is happening inside me that is in the realm of the experiences described in “The Cloud of Unknowing” because I am completely clueless about this inner work. All of God’s work is happening under my radar. until something triggers tears which seem to pop up from no where. No room for pride here. It is all about Him and He is probably keeping me in the dark because I would just get in the way.
For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face; now I know in part, but then I will know fully just as I also have been fully known. 1 Corinthians 13:12
- Just typing these words brings tears to my eyes once again. I am not exactly sure what is going on in my spirit and soul but I do know that a huge shift is happening. When I stop for a moment , my shoulders sag as warmth floods my heart AND my body. I am aware of God’s presence.
- All I understand cognitively is that God is at work within me and I could break down and weep in gratitude for answered prayers. I have longed for such intimacy for decades, not days or weeks or even a few years but for decades I have worked on all the barriers to surrender, to trusting Him. Now He is in charge, He is at work hidden, mysterious, yet letting me know that I am on the brink of something profoundly simple..finally letting Him love me.
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I am praying for you Melanie right now that you may get to know what the Lord is saying. May He bless you and your family always.
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thank-you Victor..I am grateful for your constant support-and how is your recovery of your physical heart?
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Hi Melanie. Recovering slowly but well. Thank God.
Spending some time visitng my Blogging friends too. I get tired quickly though. I tried today to lighten the mood by posting an Aunt Gertrude story.
I shall continue to pray that you come to know what God is saying to you.
May He bless you and yours always.
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He is Saying..relax and simply enjoy my Presence
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I haven’t read this yet but I will say that I’m puzzled by the title. love the photograph of the young girl in the mirror… where does it come from? did you take it yourself? I would like to know the provenance please!
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no, it is not my photograph BUT it was on so many sites, I did not feel it would be a problem to use it
thid is what I got when I googled the image
https://www.google.ca/search?safe=active&q=sad+dp+for+girls&tbm=isch&tbs=simg:CAQSlgEJ7B4gL6mfXYQaigELEKjU2AQaBAgVCAAMCxCwjKcIGmEKXwgDEid4xRnwBKwZuQ7JDvEElxnuBJgO-Cz7LPks-izqLMIjtiDDI8Uj9iwaMJsTySZ1Q6658W4wVmYiu6fLbIbka1MPEulppNUZJZHLDoNS197QDff7OQOlBBZ7GyAEDAsQjq7-CBoKCggIARIEPkHQ7gw&sa=X&ved=0ahUKEwjqqeTN_prfAhVkQt8KHSIFBbQQ2A4ILCgB&biw=1366&bih=577
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Okay, now I have read what you wrote. Very interesting. Title still puzzles me though. When I read through where you were at when you wrote this, my thoughts went immediately to Jacob’s Ladder (see below). 1 Cor. 13:12 is a very meaningful scripture (I am writing a story with this scripture in mind).
Genesis 28:15 (KJV)
28:15 And, behold, I am with thee, and will keep thee in all places whither thou goest, and will bring thee again into this land; for I will not leave thee, until I have done that which I have spoken to thee of.
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This was written 5 years ago and I have changed and grown, however, the line “working under my radar” mean my natural, logical mind does not always understand what God is doing and from my position as a human I only see dimly. AND I can relate to that scriptural promise from God to his people.
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I see what you mean now. You working under your own radar. The title is somewhat “misleading” in that it makes it sound as if God is not in control and He was “under” Your Radar… not on your radar. You could always edit and expand this. It’s a good topic.
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