Christian spirituality, inner transformation and contemplation are not at all what I first imagined them to be. I initially began this inner journey with earnest striving, depending on my discipline and will power.JUST LIKE EVERY OTHER HUMAN, l failed miserably because striving to transform myself spiritually into a person of Love and Light is sort of like an ant straining and trying to turn himself into a human. we really must be reborn in the Spirit and truth and that is a job for the Spirit of God in me.
When I admitted defeat, then God had an opportunity to save me from myself
When, I depend only on myself, I am in a sense wasting the work done on the cross; I am stealing God’s job because i am trying to save, purify and sanctify myself with my energy, strategy, and effort.
When I gave up , exhausted, I untied God’s hands; I gave Him permission to redeem me.
When I let go of control and quit trying to understand the inexplicable, miracles started happening, real miracles
When I opened my deepest core self to His Spirit, I started to watch God work in and through me as He saved me and all those around me.