Change Me

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In my own arrogance,

and with the idealism of youth,

I tried to mold myself

into a new, better self

all on my own.

I immersed myself in the culture and literature of the Church,

embracing simplicity and a disciplined prayer life

taking myself on

through spiritual direction and inner healing.

I spurned materialism and the culture of modern societybbcd58801bd09279f4045043c777351d

as I mothered nine children on a small farm

Till exhaustion

Forced me to realize that I was trying to save myself

with my own efforts.

Shocked to realize I was

ignoring the salvation power of Christ

Stealing Christ’s job

Humility lead to surrender.

I finally gave up trying to save myself

Annie Henrie
Annie Henrie

J0Y followed automatically

as I discovered life as a child of God.

Psalm 51:10  Create in me a clean heart, O God, And renew a steadfast spirit within me.

2 Corinthians 5:17  Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creature; the old things passed away; behold, new things have come.

Jeremiah 24:7  I will give them a heart to know Me, for I am the LORD; and they will be My people, and I will be their God, for they will return to Me with their whole heart.
 Ezekiel 11:19 And I will give them one heart, and put a new spirit within them And I will take the heart of stone out of their flesh and give them a heart of flesh,



6 thoughts on “Change Me

  1. Dear Melanie,
    This post….the words….they described my years past, they describe the periods I still go through trying to raise my children right. I had a mother, who in all likelihood, suffers from Narcissistic Personality Disorder. So, too much of my time is spent ensuring the apple (me) falls as far as possible from the apple tree. I also fear life can end all too soon, and this leads me to overdo spirituality lessons with my kids.

    A few months ago, I began to sense a difference. When I got overwhelmed by the children and household issues, I felt an odd longing to collapse against Mother Mary, and to let her take over.

    I’m donkey-stubborn by nature, but I am glad I listened to the longing within me. The moment I began to let go to Mother Mary, I knew something had changed. She took charge, and I saw what I could never have achieved on my own.

    You were spot on to recognize this malady for what it is: Taking Over God’s job. I cant even do mine, and yet, I want to do His!!!!

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  2. So beautiful! I sure have missed your posts! I don’t expect you to remember me, but I three years ago I was pregnant blogger with two kids trying to figure it all out. After my third came I just couldn’t keep up; so, naturally, I had a fourth and I’m back in the blogging world I have missed so much. I am in South Africa now, and I’ll have to look into getting digital copies of your beautiful books.

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