In my own arrogance,
and with the idealism of youth,
I tried to mold myself
into a new, better self
all on my own.
I immersed myself in the culture and literature of the Church,
embracing simplicity and a disciplined prayer life
taking myself on
through spiritual direction and inner healing.
I spurned materialism and the culture of modern society
as I mothered nine children on a small farm
Forced me to realize that I was trying to save myself
with my own efforts.
Shocked to realize I was
ignoring the salvation power of Christ
Stealing Christ’s job
Humility lead to surrender.
I finally gave up trying to save myself
J0Y followed automatically
as I discovered life as a child of God.
Psalm 51:10 Create in me a clean heart, O God, And renew a steadfast spirit within me.
2 Corinthians 5:17 Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creature; the old things passed away; behold, new things have come.