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Anxiety  makes us ill in body, mind, and spirit. Yet worry is ingrained in our nature from the moment we are born, part of original sin. Babies are not simply empty slates; they are complex little people who just happen to be preverbal. Babies are born with more than simply inherited physical characteristics but personalities and even inherited blessings and curses passed down through the generations,

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This is not simply an Old Testament teaching, With the help of a spiritual director and the light of  Holy Spirit, I have faced and uprooted inherited stuff for years both personally and with my kids. Yes, my children came from the heart of God with a Divine spark in their souls. They have even spoken the Word of God to me as the most open soul in the room who could hear the whispers of the Holy Spirit within their spirits On the other hand they are human beings with faults, weaknesses and even sin as part of who they are. Babies can worry and are often. fearful just like adults.

Worry only feeds our panic over situations that are beyond our control..

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The fact remains, though, I must let go of worry and control, even though it goes against every fiber of my being. My Lord is God and I am not. I am simply His child.  I love to control so God often must shatter my safe little world because this is the only way I would step out of my comfort zone.

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Many times devastating circumstances have ended one way of life for our family with  something new always rising out of the ashes

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 I had to learn to relax and patiently let the process unfold naturally since melodrama really did not help.

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I always say I finally can laugh in the face of tragedy. Laughter puts every thing into perspective. Although stuck in retched circumstances, I still can change how I feel and how I think. Christian Cognitive Therapy is a powerful tool. I can often change my thoughts and focus on all the blessing is my life, instead of everything going wrong. Amazingly my emotions change as well. For example, no matter what the circumstances, I still can see, hear, use all my limbs and I don’t have a chronic illness.

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 Really, humans are so illogical, we are comical. Laughter cuts through our  anxiety because we realize how absurd we are. Listen to the Words of Jesus:

Might as well give up. I was not designed to control everything and everyone. So I might as well give up control and give God His job back.  When I accept that I am simply a child of God, nothing more, nothing less, then I can relax.

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