i live with mysteries now, content
because…
i am small
finite,
living in linear time
on a flat plane of existence.
Who has known the mind of the Lord? Or who has been his counsellor? Romans 11:34
i wear dark coloured glasses with blinders while.
peering at the world as if i were the centre of the universe.
who am i to complain loudly at the perceived injustices of God,
the Holy Immortal One?
Who can fathom the Spirit of the LORD ( Isaiah 40:13).
who am i to demand answers to all of life’s mysteries and problems?
all i can do is
lay down entitlement and pride,
then allow Christ to save me from myself,
my little prison of ego.
He plugs me into Himself,
His Body and
into the community of saints,
both living and dead
“For My thoughts are not your thoughts, Nor are your ways My ways,” declares the LORD. “For as the heavens are higher than the earth, So are My ways higher than your ways And My thoughts than your thoughts (Isaiah 55:8,9).
connecting with theology is a verb
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Often now, although I seek to do His Will, I find the going very hard because my ways are not His ways. I want things resolved my way. In desperation, I’m asking for miracles now but I don’t stop at that; I go on to tell the Lord exactly how those miracles should unfurl!
But I well know that the Will of God will triumph over mine. And I fear that because I hold on so tightly to my version of things, I may miss each grace sent my way and each miracle worked. That I will go on praying and praying for miracles and yet not see them for my blindness.
So, I’m trying to pray,
Lord, grant me the grace to see Your miracles and to accept them in joy and thanksgiving.
Not an easy prayer for me.
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We are ALL in the same predicament- the struggle to trust in the dark comes with being human and wanting to be independent, like a god. This is the original sin of mankind.
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I concur!
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Hi Melanie,
Nice poem! 🙂 Hope you’re keeping well.
I wonder if you could please email or call me as I’m trying to figure out some old tax stuff about our book and need to login createspace to see how many Love Rebel: Reclaiming Motherhood copies I ordered a few years ago. I think you have my info.
Thank you so much!!
Anna
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